My Character Clues

I do have some character clues in my life, but some of them I sometimes oppose. Here are some things I have experienced in my life:

Patience vs. Restlessness
Accepting a difficult situation from God without giving Him a deadline to remove it.

Now this year I have been in lots of difficult situations from God (from which I know He put those stages) and I have almost gave Him a deadline, but then I used wisdom and thought of what Jesus would do, so I thought that he would keep going and see what happens. Like now I have lost all my wisdom that I used to have, as a result I have lost the highest reward for smartness but I got a 3.62 on my report card when my parents want me to get above a 4.0 so I got really angry at God because my parents grounded me from playing video games, toys, and I also have to memorize every character clue today. But I stood firm and kept on going and today I'm still at that stage.

And I've also had a time when God gave me hard time getting every ones attention I felt like I was being pushed around like a little kid, so I thought as I was crying," Lets see if everyone will care if I ran away." So I have made a plan to run away, but as I have gotten the chance to do it I was at the door and so I turned back and I didn't do it because I knew I wouldn't last out there, so sometimes these days I just think first to get stronger, then go, so I used wisdom and patience because I knew what Jesus would do and I wouldn't just waste my life to just give a deadline for God to make everyone care, but today I still have that thought with the struggle of everyone not caring about me.

Faith vs. Presumption
Visualizing what God intends to do in a given situation and acting in harmony with it.

Now when I was struggling I was always afraid of my father because every day, when my father came home, most of the time I would be scolded because of my grades and the things I do. But now i know that God will work through me to change, but for now I will try to change just to make my father and Lord just to be happy so for now I just will try to live with it, but here is my last sentence for my post: I Just want to say I would give up anything and do anything just to make someone feel happy, but mostly my parents ( and right now as I'm typing this, I am crying, so this is really personal) I just want some to at least care for and actually grin at me.